I'ts 10 past 5, and I have about 15 minutes until I leave for my weekly game of badminton so I thought I'd drop a line.

It's been a decent start to the week.

Comparing this to my life two months ago, there have been several big changes. I'm definately a lot calmer these days and less prone to going a little crazy at people. Funny how less drugs do that :- ). I'm trying to change who I see after work. There used to be a core set of people I'd hang out with and have a smoke with. Obviously this isn't the best of plans. Now all of these people are lovely. Genuinely. They're all professionals and it's not like their lives were a mess and pulling me down. However, at the moment, it's just not in my best interest to see them twice/three times a week, watching them get f*cked while I sip on a cup of tea and chat merrily.

I've had a couple of nights in with my folks which I haven't done in god knows how long. And you know? It's really good. It's nothing crazy but I'm surprised at how much we talk. It's something I know I'll miss when they move out. How many kids can say that these days?

I'm hitting the gym pretty hard these days. I have to admit, while losing a sh8t load of weight rapidly due to stress is really not a great idea, I've made the most of it by running a lot and doing a fair amount of weights. I don't think I've been this stacked before and it gives you a fair amount of confidence. yay. I'm going about 5 times a week at the moment mostly during lunch. I tend to have a cheeky extra 15 minutes but considering I work until half 5 most nights, I figure it's not too much of an issue. At the moment, I do about 20-30 minutes of running [while watching neighbours of course :- )] and then 20-30 minutes of weights [just on the arms] and situps. Overall, it's not bad. There's a guy at work who does a lot of break dancing, Chris. Really sound bloke. Bit of an inspiration really [but f*ck don't tell him that!!!]. He's cut-to-f*ck and I know that I can get there if I keep working out.

Don't worry, one day you'll see me on the cover of some guys health magazine with a stomach like a wash board :- )

Went down to London on the weekend. I've recently gotten into going clubbing down there. I've only been in England for 4 and half years and NOW I discover the clubs :- ). Makes it easier when you know people who go regularly. A place called the Egg is my current venue of choice. They tend to play a lot of funky-house. Hard to describe except that it's PHAT beats thats a little bit .. .. well .. .. funky. Very easy to shake your ass to. Good times in general. I love chatting to people in the chill out area of the clubs. Being london, you get to meet some very intersting people. Some are simply fruit loops and the conversations lasts 30 seconds, or they could be stunning young girls from Glasgow that could last like an hour [erm, like saturday]. All in all, good times to be had really.

Lots and LOTS of things are going well in my life.

There's only one thing that's not quite right [if you've read earlier entries, then you know what I mean]. Funny how it seems to dominate my thoughts generally but I know that while the pain will pretty much always be there, it'll dull over time. I know I've got a shed load of other stuff to look forward to. I'm just starting to apreciate all I've got now.

sweet as.